Well, i'm eighteen in a month. hooray for me. i haven't organised anything, been a bit busy of late. i got a job working for the government. also hooray for me. this is the main source of my busy-ness. i have had very little time to contemplate the near future and as such, care very little for events that may come to pass in the near future. it feels like i'm a mile away from becoming an adult. i just can't emotionally attach myself to something i can't see coming. if it was next week i might be able to but i can't see it a month away through the multitude of other things i need to think about.

i'm trying more polish as well. i aim to be decent by march, which is probably a long shot but i just want to be better at communicating than i am now.

i'm tired now. off to bed.

that is all.